Prince .. Prince .. My Prince ..

I NEED YOU :(

First PTC Tomorrow :|

Tomorrow will be the first parents-teacher conference. I'm nervous, of course. Especially now na alam kong may chance na hindi na ako kasama sa top. :|

Bakit kasi nagkaron pa ng highest section eh, now puro labanan. Okay lang naman sana sa'kin ang highest section, pero in my situation, I don't know. :/

My lolo and my lola expects too much from me, like being the top of our class, be this and that.
But honestly, I can't. Not the fact na mas maraming mas matatalino sa'kin, it's just that.. it's just too hard.

I don't know. I don't even understand my own self, I don't know who to blame, I - DON'T - KNOW!

I just don't know.

Understanding my own self.

Yeah.

:(

--HUG ME.

#1 Issue ...again.

Yes, again.

Kaninang umaga, may nagparinig na naman teacher sa'kin, na ako daw ay plastic. Utang na loob naman! Hindi po ako ganyang tao, plus, kanino niyo po ba narinig 'yun? I mean, kung may sinabi man ako sa adviser about sa kanya, yun eh yung dahil nga sinabihan niya ako ng "TALANDI". Eh sino naman po kasi ang hindi mababagabag pag sinabihan ng ganun. Tapos, again ako na naman ang nag mukhang masama at kasuka-sukang ugali. I can't stand it anymore.

LEAVE ME ALONE! :|

imxwierd

just wanna tell you guys my new email address. It's imxwierd@yahoo.com

I made a new email address because I think the old one is a bit "sinauna" and kinda hard to understand.
My old one is shavi_ylreveb@yahoo.com.ph .. I know right! Jologs ang dating and mahirap sabihin, and take note may .ph pa :))

Add me on your Yahoo contacts. Oh and no trash talk please. Hee*

actually, it's supposed to be "imwierd", but its already used so I added x on the middle served as a space.

:)

Ideal man (?)

Errr.
Ideal man huh?
This is kinda strange for me, well I guess its because I got this feeling of an innocent typo. yeah WHAT?
Really, I mean this topic have been stuck on my mind since yesterday.
Maybe because I'm bringing myself back to my "old" -- self. (?)
You know, the feeling of a REAL lady. and when I say lady, I mean the shy innocent type, the kind of a nice person WHATEVER. I'm not trying to change myself, I'm ME. I'm just bringing myself back, or my used to be ME. I'm gonna be the same person I was when I was in elementary. Well no, not exactly.
Errr. It's kinda hard to explain, but I hope you guys can understand my not so perfect grammar. Haha :))

Okay, let us go back to the topic.
Ideal man? WOAH.

Hmm.. let me think.
TALENTED ! :D
I don't know, but I am attracted to talented guys. Like, a singer or a dancer. I don't like good for nothing :/
I like sporty guys. I'm not saying na kailangan athlete siya, gusto ko at least marunong and malakas tumira. Haha :))
Thoughtful, caring, respectful, sweet, makulit XD
Hindi problema sa'kin ang itsura mo, basta may cute kang ngiti :)

Aaand that's it!

I keep gettin' buseyyyy

Ohhhhh my .. *sigh*
just what the hell, ang dami ko kailangan gawin na dapat ginawa ko na from the start ..
My eye bags keeps gettin' bigger and I don't know what to do ..

(I don't mind if you don't want to read it. Wala rin kasi ako sa right state of mind ngayon)

:)

Okay, first 'yung English ko .. lahat ng records ko kailangan ko ulitin dahil tinamad ako ipasa nung ipinapapasa ni Sir Fritz (gulo ko,right?)
Then second, yung Chemistry, bukas pa ako makakapag pasa ng project because I thought bawal na, dahil nga late .. I wonder kung anu pang score ibibigay sa'kin ni T. Dowie ? Hmm ..
Third, yung anniversary gift ng JACABS. Up until now wala pa'rin ako nagagawa. Ako na naman ata ang male-late .. sorry guys :(

DAMN IT!

Lagi nalang akong late sa lahat ng bagay.
Pupunta ako ng school, late.
papasa ng project, late.
Bibigay ng gift, late.

I'm SOOOOO sorry for not making up to you guys ..
I mean, hindi na ako nagbago ..

Anyway, I have to go dahil mejo gabi na and MAMELS is freakin' scoldin' me again ..
If I could just shut the hell out of her mouth, hayy ..

BYEE :)

THROAT ACHE

Ang sakit ng lalamunan ko. It's hard for me to talk. Aww T_T
Tapos na ang sport fest, wag niyo tanungin kung anu-anu ang nangyari dahil ayoko ng matandaan pa.
IT SUCKS.

So that's it, tinatamad ako mag post. Though ang dami ko gustong sabihin, ayoko nalang muna magsalita.
:|

Sportfest tomorrow

Sooo, dahil absent yesterday, I didn't know that tomorrow will be the start of this year's sport fest. Kinda excited, and a bit nervous, but it's okay.

Blue team! Blueeee, ang aming team color. At least hindi boring ang kulay ahh! Haha :))
Ka-team ko sina Sharls, Alwie, and Steph. Yay! At least some of them ka-close ko! I mean SUPER close! Haha :D

And ang sinalihan kong sport ay .. TANTANANAN!

• Table Tennis -- Okay. So, eto na nga. I know hindi ako kagalingan sa table tennis, pero remember last year nung napasali ako and then natalo. That was horrible! At first, nothing serious. I mean, hindi ko talaga sineryoso ang game. I was like, "manalo matalo IDK!" Pero, pagkatapos nun -- I stopped and think back again. Masyado ata akong pabaya. I need to fight too, you know! And dahil nga wala naman talaga ako alam sa table tennis , and ang pag seserve ang pinaka-ayaw ko -- AYUN. Talo~ Haha! Pero, this time lalaban ako. I'm actually thinking of some strategies to do pag nasa table field na ako. Pero I'm not planning of some kind what you call revenge huh! WRONG. Gusto ko lang i-enjoy ang game and just GOO! FIGHT :D
• Scrabble -- Hmm. Okay lang. Marunong ako, pero I can't say na magaling. I maybe good at English, but that doesn't mean that I'm good at spellings sooo.. I DON'T KNOW. Plan ko mag practice sa computer ng scrabble, so that hindi ako magmukhang tanga sa laban. Ohh, ang guess what? Makakalaban ko pa ata si Phauline? SCARY! Why? She's just too good. *sigh* Pero I won't give up. NEVER this time. NEVER SAY NEVER. Never never NEVERRR :D
• Word Factory -- Listen guys, I don't know a single thing about this sport. And you know what? Ngayon ko nga lang ata narinig 'bout this game eh. Hmm. They say it's about English words (again), and kailangan calm ka. Haha! I don't need to worry 'bout that! I'm always at my calmest, but beware honey. he-he-HE :D

So, that's it. Three sports ang lalaruin ko. Haha! YESS! Too many, I knowww :D But it's okay. I'll do my best so trust me. :)

Wish me luck guys. I'm hoping na makapanalo man lang kahit isa. Oh and anyway, 3 days po ang sport fest namin, so 'til Friday. GAWD. So busy tayo this week, and hyper ulet ako. And pagkatapos nun, DEAD ? Haha! Dead lang 'yung throat kaka-cheer! :D

FUCK THIS DAY

I HATE THIS DAY.

Kagabi, hirap na hirap ako matulog dahil sa inaapoy ako ng lagnat. Umagang umaga, nag collapsed ako. I was so scared that time, I even thought na mamatay na ata ako. Nagising ako nakahiga, panic buong family namin dahil hinang hina ako. I can't move, sakit buong katawan ko. PInipilit ko lang tumayo para kamain. And then nalaman ko may sakit Tita Mean ko, so worry naman ako. I feel bad dahil alam kong magagalit si Alwie 'bout sa hindi ako makakapag bigay ng kahit anu compared sa binigay niya sa'kin dahil nababoy. Gusto kong ulitin sa simula, kaso hindi ko magalaw kamay ko. Nag OL ako, nung okay okay na body ko. Pumunta sina Alwie, Shaine and Mark sa'min, para kamustahin ako. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin na dahilan para hindi magtampo si Alwie. I don't know what to do, I feel horrible and worst at the same time. And then, nalaman ko nagkaron daw ng audition para sa mga club ng school, and dahil nga sa absent ako, hindi ako nakapag audition. My most awaited day, wala na. And now, wala akong mapagsabihan ng takot ko, ng inis and ng .. FUCKKKK! Umalis si Sharls, hindi ko na nasabi 'bout sa nightmare ko. And ang tropa, I wanna tell them everything, but sometimes, they don't listen. Why don't you just kill me now huh?

Wala na. :|

HAPPY 1ST BEST FRIEND ANNIVERSARY!

Dear Best,
Happy Anniversary. GAHD. Nalimutan ko August 1 pala 'yun. AYOKO MAG EMOTE :)
Best, thank you sa one year na 'yun :) I'm so happy to have you as my best friend. 'Yun lang. Mas emoticon ako inside ee :)) I love you.


-- Bhev :)

RESOLVE

Frankly, hindi ko talaga alam kung saan ako magsisimula. FUCK!

Okay, I have this some kind of call -- FORBIDDEN LOVE ? Nah!

Ganito kasi 'yun, kanina parinig ng parinig ang mga teachers 'bout relationship. RELATIONSHIP? Sound so simple huh? NO :|

So kami nga ni Sharls, now what? WHY DO YOU GUYS CARE?

Eto ang issue sa buong campus:

NO P.D.A. (Public Display Affection)

-- So, oo nga! Nag hug kami twice ni Sharls, soooo simple. HUG LANG. Now what? Nung nag hug naman kami wala pang rules na NO PDA ahh? Yeah oo nga, Alwie remind me 'bout that, and sinunod ko naman. Wala ng next dun!

HAVING A BOYFRIEND IS NOT A JUST A JOKE.

-- 'Yan ang sabi ng teachers namin. And I knew na ako and Coleen ang pinariringgan nila. If it's about Tim, matagal na 'yun. Naging kami, he's my ex since last two weeks. I know na it's too early para magkaron ng new, pero the truth is, I've never love him from the start. Hindi ko siya minahal kahit nung kami. Sounds harsh but yes, that's the truth. I thought he's going to be a perfect boyfriend for me. And yes, he IS perfect, good looks, smart, kind.. in other words, siya yung iniimagine na maraming girl to be BF. But, what's wrong is with ME. Hindi ko siya mahal :(

So anyway, hindi ko siya pinaglaruan. I tried my best para matutunan ko siyang mahal, and dahil nga ang best friend ko ang nag matched sa'min, so akala ko okay na. But NO :|

Sharls is different. He's not maybe the perfect guy, but it doesn't matter. I love him :)

YOU ARE IN SECTION DIAMOND.

-- GAHD. FINE! isa ako sa mga tinitingala! Nasa star section na ako! DIAMONDDDD! And kapag bumaba grades ko just because of that fling, it will be a great humiliation to me. And I know that. Pero this is the DEAL.

I'll maintain my grades, I'll study harder and I'll do my best para mabalance ko ang relationship ko with Sharls and with my studies. I'll prove them WRONG! Got that huh? This is my RESOLVE :)

HE'S DELINQUENT?

-- NOOO! He's not delinquent! Maloko lang siya ng kaunti, pero he's smart. Kaya siya nasa Gold section kasi kulang 'yung average score niya para makapasok sa Diamond section. Pero, nung first day, nasa room namin siya. Kaya lang, pinalipat dahil nga kulang average niya last year..

So 'yan nga!

What can I say? SIKAT NA AKO SA CAMPUS :))

Hahah! May disadvantage nga lang, puro tsismis >:((

Pero, hindi ko na muna iintindihin yun.. What's important is, hindi mawawala RESOLVE ko.

PS. I love HIM :">